My intention today is to give myself permission to rest.
On Day 22 of the Lenten Series, Diving Deeply the writer prompts you to,
“Recall a time when life asks a lot from you, you felt spent, with nothing more to give”.
The title of the day is, “Nothing more to give”
There are times when I do feel this way.
I remember in the last 2 or 3 years times when we’d get close to the end of a 3 hour evening rehearsal that I’d say,
“Enough. I’m done”.
The level of fatigue can be intense. I have nothing left to give. I pack up and head home; so glad for the driver beside me (my husband, Nick) as I am way too tired to safely mange the task.
There’s a high intensity level to what I do. Whether I’m leading in worship, directing the choir, or playing for a rehearsal, I put all of myself into what I do. My mind can’t wander. I’m focused and in charge of my space and time in the world. At least for short periods of time.
Because I throw myself into these tasks, I am drained of energy at the end. I can smile, laugh, or be an attentive listener but deep down I know that I am done. I know that I can find sanctuary apart from what I do.
I am so fortunate in that my life’s work is also what I love to do.
In the quiet moments of Sabbath I find the solitude and rest that is needed. Time and again I create space in my life to give shelter to the busy heart and body that cries out, no more.
This time apart is essential to my well-being. I choose to be in professions that demand my attention and focus. By choice I rest, relax, and renew.
Do you have plans this weekend to create that space for yourself?