My intention today is to give myself permission to rest.

On Day 22 of the Lenten Series, Diving Deeply the writer prompts you to,

“Recall a time when life asks a lot from you, you felt spent, with nothing more to give”.

The title of the day is, “Nothing more to give”

There are times when I do feel this way.

I remember in the last 2 or 3 years times when we’d get close to the end of a 3 hour evening rehearsal that I’d say,

“Enough.  I’m done”.

The level of fatigue can be intense.  I have nothing left to give.  I pack up and head home; so glad for the driver beside me (my husband, Nick) as I am way too tired to safely mange the task.

There’s a high intensity level to what I do.  Whether I’m leading in worship, directing the choir, or playing for a rehearsal, I put all of myself into what I do.  My mind can’t wander.  I’m focused and in charge of my space and time in the world.  At least for short periods of time.

Because I throw myself into these tasks, I am drained of energy at the end. I can smile, laugh, or be an attentive listener but deep down I know that I am done. I know that I can find sanctuary apart from what I do.

I am so fortunate in that my life’s work is also what I love to do.

In the quiet moments of Sabbath I find the solitude and rest that is needed.  Time and again I create space in my life to give shelter to the busy heart and body that cries out, no more.

This time apart is essential to my well-being. I choose to be in professions that demand my attention and focus. By choice I rest, relax, and renew.

Do you have plans this weekend to create that space for yourself?