My intention today is to give myself permission to rest.
On Day 22 of the Lenten Series, Diving Deeply the writer prompts you to,
“Recall a time when life asks a lot from you, you felt spent, with nothing more to give”.
The title of the day is, “Nothing more to give”
There are times when I do feel this way.
I remember in the last 2 or 3 years times when we’d get close to the end of a 3 hour evening rehearsal that I’d say,
“Enough. I’m done”.
The level of fatigue can be intense. I have nothing left to give. I pack up and head home; so glad for the driver beside me (my husband, Nick) as I am way too tired to safely mange the task.
There’s a high intensity level to what I do. Whether I’m leading in worship, directing the choir, or playing for a rehearsal, I put all of myself into what I do. My mind can’t wander. I’m focused and in charge of my space and time in the world. At least for short periods of time.
Because I throw myself into these tasks, I am drained of energy at the end. I can smile, laugh, or be an attentive listener but deep down I know that I am done. I know that I can find sanctuary apart from what I do.
I am so fortunate in that my life’s work is also what I love to do.
In the quiet moments of Sabbath I find the solitude and rest that is needed. Time and again I create space in my life to give shelter to the busy heart and body that cries out, no more.
This time apart is essential to my well-being. I choose to be in professions that demand my attention and focus. By choice I rest, relax, and renew.
Do you have plans this weekend to create that space for yourself?
In exhaustion, there is NOTHING more to give, and without REST, there Will BE NOTHING to give, so REST, while seeming optional, is mandatory. Giving yourself permission makes it happen and prepares you for what lies ahead………